Superior Self / The Hardest Parts of Motherhood

​I'm a mother of two glorious teens. Sage is a girl, age 15, and Golden is a boy, age 18. For me, the most difficult part of being a mom is stretching the umbilical cord, so to speak. I love them with every fiber of my being. I work nights so that I can be there for the after school pickups at two schools at two times, help with homework and make dinner before I go to work as a server at night.  It is hard to leave them, even at the teenager stage because they are so much fun and great companions. We truly enjoy each other. 

I know I have to trust in the way I have raised them, and allow them more freedom. It is difficult to teach my son how to drive and then not bug him every five seconds about safety even after he has his license! I check in on them at home when I'm at work, asking if they have eaten dinner, even though I know they aren't going to starve themselves. It's hard to hold my tongue even though I should, in order for them to be strong and independent thinkers. It is also difficult to stretch the umbilical cord because my son is living near USC in LA, and living his dream as a songwriter and singer. Sage will rapidly follow, being in college in a short two and a half years. I dread thinking about the empty nest syndrome when these two magnificent beings have given me the best years of my life!

I know from my research and writing over the years that I must devote Myself to Myself, and that will ease the shift along at a lesser sting. So, off I go to another hot yoga class and writing retreat! 

Thank you for allowing me to share.  
Blessings,
KJ Landis

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