From a Loving Place/ KNOWING LOVE

Dear Love,

I spent a long time looking for you in other people; I never felt fulfilled. Heartache ate at my soul before I finally understood what people meant when they said, I could only love others as much as I love myself. I didn’t realize the opposite was true too—I could only receive as much love as I give myself.Anything beyond what I felt I deserved, I sabotaged. I spent so much time sabotaging my happiness because on the inside I was screaming horrible names and beliefs about myself. I believed it was okay to let people who said they love me call me names and belittle me like I meant nothing.  I didn’t understand how unlovable and unworthy of love I felt.

Love, the day I found you was the day I defined you. I never absorbed the definition of you before. Though I heard it many times, I took the words as a fairytale. When I finally saw the truth in the words; I healed the hole in my soul.

In “Corinthians” 13.4-13.7, I found you.

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